Tonight is a special night, y’all. A night in which I try to convince my husband that I deserve presents because I FINISHED MY EATING DISORDER RECOVERY PROGRAM. It went something like this:
Tabitha: Are you proud of me?
Tabitha: What’s my prize?
Hubs: A book from Half-Price.
Tabitha: How about 5 books from Amazon?
Kiddo: YES! Mommy, you can have five books.
Hubs: No. And he doesn’t get a vote, he has no money.
Kiddo: I have pennies in my piggy bank!
Tabitha: YEAH! He has money in his piggy bank and he says I can.
Hubs: Not five.
Tabitha: FINE. TWO.
Tabitha: That’s a yes. OKAY BYE. *hangs up*
But in all seriousness, this was 2 of the hardest months ever for me. I had to finally accept that I’ve had an eating disorder for 26 years and I can’t ignore it anymore. I still struggle a lot and it’s frustrating to know that recovery isn’t ending today. I wish this bracelet meant that it just goes away after I click “publish” on this blog, but it doesn’t. What it does mean though, is that I am strong and courageous. I asked for help when I didn’t want to. I literally kicked and screamed my way through this program, but I left feeling a little bit better.
If you’re struggling with anything, not just an eating disorder, remember that it is okay to ask for help. It is okay to admit that you can’t do this alone, we weren’t made to face the world alone. Be strong and courageous.
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