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I just… I’m in tears tonight. 10:44pm on a Tuesday night. I’m crying so hard.

The Reason.

I’m aware that I’m 31 and probably way too old to be watching the MTV VMAs, but it’s a little guilty pleasure of mine as I sit on my couch and shake my metaphorical cane at the young children on stage making more money than I will ever see in my life. Also, I’m watching it two days late, which just means I’m an adult who has better things to do. (or my husband was watching GoT.)

Anyways, I’m crying because a song I have come to love very recently is being performed on stage, for millions to watch. It’s not only being performed, the National Suicide Prevention Hotline is being displayed and there are so many people standing on the stage. The people on the stage are suicide survivors. SURVIVORS.

This is so amazing and powerful to me. And honestly… I’m jealous. I’m so jealous that kids these days were exposed to that because I wish I had been. Thankfully I am a survivor, but man how fantastic that would have been. I wish there was a way to know how many lives that one single performance changed on Sunday night.

I know where you been, where you are, where you goin’
I know you’re the reason I believe in life
What’s the day without a little night?
I’m just tryna shed a little light
It can be hard
It can be so hard
But you gotta live right now
You got everything to give right now

If you’re new here: My story.

I want you to be alive
I want you to be alive
You don’t gotta die today
You don’t gotta die

So powerful.

World Suicide Prevention Day is September 10th. Did you know that? Did you know there was a whole day? Even better? There’s a whole week. I’ll be making a post about that next month, but if you want to share the word – here’s a way that I’m taking part in and would love if you did too!

You are not alone. Stay.

Reach out. Tell someone. Tell your neighbor. Tell a stranger. Tell me.

National Suicide Hotline

Side note – They’re bringing back TRL in October… so that’s a thing now.


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